21/02/26
kind of struggling to make that website tbh...
22/02/26
went home from ski trip today
25/02/26
maybe at the end of my life i'll think about
words i never said, because they were too risky
my hair i never cut, because i was too afraid
the person i wanted to become so bad, but which i never became
because i was too afraid, always scared that
i would do the wrong things, say the wrong thing, or cut my hair too short
maybe at the end of my life
on my death bed
i will realise that i never really lived
but i'm still young
and i can still cut my hair short
become that person i wanna be so bad
and tell you that i love you
i wish i was brave
but i'm afraid i'll never be brave enough
to live
04/03/26
i'm so unsure of my feelings.i can't seem to know or decide which feelings are real, or which ones i'll follow. my heart bounces between these two boys, and i know for sure which one is the "safe" option. but god, how bad i want that "unsafe" boy... i don't even know how i'm ever going to recover from this unrequited love. i guess i'll just never recover.
i wish D. loved me. i guess everything would be way more easy. or i just think i'll end up with neither.
i just can't seem to make a choice. i can't seem to decide which boy my heart belongs to, or if i'll cut my hair short or not.
01/04/26
i love the wind, but only when it blows the right way
i love the rain, but only when i'm inside
i love the sun, but only when it doesn't burn me
i love music, but only when it's the right songs
so i just know
that i can love you
but i can't
because i'm just in the wrong places
and you're not the right song
and i'll always be sorry
that i can't appreciate your love
the way it deserves to be